When my pregnancy was coming to an end, one of the things I was looking forward to (apart from the obvious) was 'feeling like me again'. I was tired of having a huge bump, being unable to get out of the bath and wearing awful maternity clothes that made me look even worse than I felt. Fashion has always been something I've loved and in that nine months, my body changed beyond recognition and I had a very limited choice of what I could actually dress it in. I wanted to feel like me again - to have the energy to do my hair, my make-up and to pick a nice outfit that'd make me feel good too.
Little did I know that it'd take a lot longer than my due date for me to get that feeling back again.
I made a deal with myself that I wouldn't buy any new clothes until I was back to my pre-pregnancy weight and, although it sounds harsh, the horror of wearing old, now oversized maternity clothes was the motivation I needed and I made it back to my pre-pregnancy weight at around 12 weeks. But even then, I didn't feel good about myself. In the three months that it took me to lose that weight, I'd learned to put myself to the very last place on my list of priorities. I only had an hour or two free every day so I'd skip washing my hair in favour of writing that blog post with a deadline, or attempting to catch up with the never-ending pile of washing. I'd feel guilty for taking the time to put make-up on in the morning while Oliver sat in his bouncer waiting for me to play with him.
I can honestly say I didn't feel like 'me' again until the last two months. One day, I was writing a to-do list which was way longer than I wanted it to be. I was trying to work out where to start, and realised that I had to sit down and seriously consider what my priorities were. My stress levels were through the roof and a lot of it was down to how I was feeling in myself. I had to stop putting myself to the bottom of the list and start washing my hair when it needed washed, start doing my make-up in the morning and making sure I looked after myself before tackling that never-ending pile of washing.
As soon as this changed, so did everything else. I felt happier, less stressed and with my confidence levels back up, I had an extra spring in my step that gave me the energy to do everything else. That old cliche saying of happy mum, happy baby is true. I need to look after myself if I want to be able to look after a baby too. My hair or make-up may not interest Oliver but how it makes me feel does.
I've started enjoying shopping and putting outfits together again. I picked up this pretty white top from Next and these Topshop embroidered jeans last month. They're slightly cropped at the ankle and I love how they look paired with my Coco Rose London Clapham* loafers. These shoes are the comfiest flat ballet-style shoes that I've ever owned. They're slightly curved in the sole so they fit to the shape of my foot and, unlike other shoes in this style, don't make me feel like I'm going to walk out of them.
Getting back into fashion and style is something I want to do this year and although my blog will still be lifestyle and baby based, I want to throw the odd outfit post in every now and then. I'll be doing shopping hauls over on my youtube channel too so make sure you're subscribed over there if you want to see what I buy for my spring wardrobe - oh, it feels good to even say that!
How long did it take for you to feel like you again after having a baby?
*gifted item for review